I'll tell you the truth. Some nights I lie there convinced I'm behind.
Not behind on a number. Behind on everything. Behind on AI, behind on the roadmap, behind on whatever the leader three posts down my LinkedIn feed already shipped this weekend while I was still figuring out the basics.
I run a fast-growing team. Growth doesn't wait for you to catch up. Neither, apparently, does everyone else.
There's a specific flavor of dread that comes from scrolling past someone's announcement about the agent they built in a weekend. Meanwhile, your own team is still copy-pasting into a chat window one ticket at a time. It doesn't feel like ambition. It feels like losing a race you never agreed to run.
And here's the part I don't say out loud very often. Some days that feeling wins. I've caught myself easing off. Not quitting, just quietly deciding it's not worth the fight this week. Why push my team toward something new when I can't even tell if I'm doing it right myself? Why lead the change when I feel like the one who needs to catch up first?
That's the lie the feeling tells you. That you're supposed to have this figured out alone, in your own head, before you're allowed to lead anyone through it.
Here's what actually brought me back, every time. Realizing I'm not the only one who feels this way.
Turns out the leader three posts ahead of me feels exactly the same thing about somebody else. The person who looks like they've got AI figured out is googling half of it the night before, too. Nobody's actually caught up. Everyone's improvising in real time, and most of us are doing it quietly, alone, assuming we're the only one behind.
That realization changes the shape of the whole problem. This isn't a race where some people already finished, and the rest of us are chasing. It's an opening. A wide one. AI didn't hand a head start to whoever showed up first. It handed an opportunity to whoever's willing to build, right now, in public, badly at first, with other people doing the same thing next to them.
I'm not writing this to invite you in. Staying out is the more expensive decision.
Outside the room, you'll learn all of this anyway, eventually. Just the expensive way. Alone, after the fact, the same way most of us always have. Inside it, you see the actual tools people are running. You find the person already fighting the exact problem on your desk. Once a month, we get in a room together, live, and go past what any thread can hold.
The leaders actually pulling ahead right now aren't the ones with the most polish, and it's not because we've got this figured out either. (We don't. We're googling half of it too.) They're the ones who stopped trying to solve this alone in a browser tab at 11pm, convinced everyone else already knew something they didn't.
They found their people first. Then they built.
And the version of you that keeps building instead of quietly coasting? That's the leader your team needs to see right now too. They're watching how you handle the doubt more than they're watching what you ship.
See you in Uncommon.
Jeff